The Good, The Bad, The Ugly

The Good

I am almost 17 weeks pregnant with our second child

The Bad

The other day I went to the doctor and he surprised me by saying, "Hey you want to find out what you're having today?" I, of course, said yes and was so excited because my mom's birthday is coming up and I could now surprise her instead of waiting for Christmas. Well, any way... he turns on the ultrasound machine and starts hmmmming and uhhhhhhing. Not a good thing. He then points out an abnormality and schedules and appointment with a specialist the next day at the hospital. So, I am completely freaking out and crying due to the fact that I was so completely blindsided. Jason and I went to the hospital the next day and it turns out that our little baby (due to the abnormalities the gender is being blocked from view) has a rare condition called "Limb Body Wall Complex" which is horrible. Basically nothing is forming right. The legs aren't connected to the pelvis correctly, the internal organs are on the outside, the chest never closed, the spine is curved and open, and the brain is not developing properly. I was told that there is a 40-60 percent chance that I will miscarry, but that in all likelihood I will carry our baby to full term where if the baby does survive the birthing process they will only live for a short while and then we will have to send our baby home to it's Father. I am still in shock and numb, I am devistated. I am so tired of crying, but it never stops. I don't understand. I thought my trials with having children were over, but I'm still being tested. It just sucks big time. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday and I am having a hard time with the thanks. I know I have a lot of blessing and they are still coming, but it's hard to see through this wall of grief. I am thankful for a husband who stands by my side and a wonderful son and a family who is always there for me because I am going to need a lot of extra love and patience in the coming months.

The Ugly

That would be me. I am not handling this well as of yet and you sure can tell by my appearance. But you know what... I don't give a damn.

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow!!

We had our first real snow here the other weekend and I took Jefferson out to explore. Last winter he was still pretty small so there were no snow excursions so I wondered how he would react to snow. It was priceless!

For a long time he just stood there with his hands out with a look on his face like "what the heck is this stuff"

Then he decided it was pretty cool, but he still wouldn't bend down and touch it until I physically made him. He jerked his hand back so fast, it was hilarious. After a few moments though, he decided it was okay stuff.


Then he just started pulling all the leaves the snow had buried out from underneath.

And so on

And so on

Halloween Pictures

We went to a little party with some friends on Halloween because we all have boys under the age of two, so there wasn't much "Trick of Treating" Jefferson is turning out to be quite the character. He is always making me laugh!!

PUMPKIN FACE!!


Our little family

All the husbands are all engineers and being such they decided it would be fun to introduce the boys to dry ice in a bottle with a small hole poked in the lid. Jefferson was the only one interested and he decided he wanted to "Inhale" It was sure funny, but probably not the safest thing. So what happened next. The guys tried inhaling also. What an example my Jefferson is for the adult males.

He had so much fun with the dry ice. He sure is his dad's son and I couldn't be happier!