As I am sure some of you have been wondering, my doctor's appointment actually went really well. I was dreading it because I knew that certain things needed to be discussed, but I left feeling lighter. My doctor is very comforting and understanding. If you have been in any position like this you know that most doctors will suggest ending the pregnancy for your own safety (and I am not judging those that do choose that path, I understand, really, I do), but they do not understand the LDS mind set. As I had tears streaming down my face my doctor asked my if I was LDS. I said yes and he said that he was also. He told me that as an LDS mother I felt a need to provide a body for this little spirit if that is what the Lord wanted. I said of course. And he responded by saying he understood. Those few words meant the world to me. I immediately calmed and was able to ask the questions I needed answers to. I am very concerned about my safety regarding a vaginal birth (I don't want a c-section) due to all the organs being on the outside and such. We have made a plan and we are watching the baby on a two week basis until the baby reaches the age of viability (24-28 weeks) and then we will re-evaluate. If the only reason we needed to be here in Brigham is so I could go through this difficult experience with this kind hearted and wonderful doctor that will be okay with me. As I was leaving he carefully reminded me that this baby is still mine and will always be mine and I will get to raise him/her later. He also suggested I read this book...
And my Aunt Marla was kind enough to pick that up for me. I have felt a greater amount of comfort this week and I feel the Lord with me and all the prayers offered in our behalf. I know there are still difficult times to come, but I know I can get through them and come out a stronger and more sympathetic person and mother. Oh and the doctor told us neither he nor the hospital should be charging us anything. That was very good news. I am so grateful for the wonderful family and friends that I have been given and I count you as my greatest strengths. I love you all and Thank You again.
Oh Tara, what a heart-wrenching experience for anyone, especially mothers and those who have recently been pregnant. You have an amazing strength about you and I know it will get you through this. And it must be extremely difficult to deal with this huge burden and still find the energy (and cheerfulness) to be a mom to Jefferson. I think about you often and I am so glad you have a wonderful doctor to help you.
ReplyDeleteThis would be a good time to let everyone know and remind those who all ready know that there are two women named Marla in Kara's life. Aunt Marla in Kara's extended family and I am Jason's mom Marla.
ReplyDeleteI just thought I might need to clarify that for people who might get confused. I intend to get hold of the book and read it before Christmas.
Thank you for posting about the doctor's appointment. Then I can encourage others who are interested to read of the experience straight from Kara's perspective. Less confusion results that way.
I am thinking and praying about ya'll constantly.
LOVE,
MOM
XOXOXOXOXO!
Kara, I am so Glad you have a doctor who understands where you are coming from. What a comfort. I know that there is still a difficult road ahead, but I am so happy that you are having moments of peace and comfort in the midst if everything. I love you and know Heavenly Father does too. It is amazing all that we can learn through these difficult experiences. You will come out a stronger person, but it's okay to have bad days sometimes. We will continue to pray and fast for you. I hope your Christmas is filled with hope and happy memories. Love you.
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