That's the Plan Stan!!

So....the time has come. On the last visit to my doctor's we determined that things are not looking good and since we are coming up on the age of viability for the baby, we should induce for the safest and most hopeful outcome for baby and me. The baby is really not all that big, but you have to understand that with all the organs on the outside the added mass will make delivering the baby difficult. On Thursday evening I am going to the hospital and they will give me some medication to help make the cervix softer to prepare for the labor inducing medication the next day. We are hopeful that things will go smoothly and as they should. Our biggest worries are the positioning of the baby (currently stomach and organs down) and the baby being born whole. There is a large chance that things will get left behind and that we will finish the delivery with some minor surgery to make sure everything has been removed. I am also worried that it will take a long time, something that would make this even harder. Since we have had time to sort of come to terms with this situation I have been able to read and pray a lot and have come to the point where I know that I will mourn, but that life is a blessing and it must go on. I have a fabulous husband, the greatest little boy, the best family anyone could hope for, and the gospel to understand that we will see our baby again. I don't know how people get through such difficult situations without it. With that said, I would ask for your prayers that everything goes well, because, let's face it, I am still scared. We will probably have to do some genetic testing to determine the gender, but we will have a graveside service where our sweet baby can be put to rest and be close to family. I think that will be the most difficult part, but I know it's not the end. This months Ensign seemed to be written just for me. I am positive that most all the articles touched on my thoughts and feelings as of late and helped me to gain peace. My mantra for this month is from the First Presidency's Message: "Hold on a little longer. You can do it." I am thankful for all the love, support, and prayers that we have received and am so glad to have friends and family so wonderful. Count your blessings, hug your spouse and children, hug your parents and be thankful for the gospel and the hand of the Lord in our lives. I love you guys!!