A Heavenly Gift

Exactly a year from the date that Jason and I found out that our little James would not survive the pregnancy, we found out that we were expecting again. I did and still do believe that it was a gift that we found out on that day. I knew it was going to be a hard day and then to be able to have an equally great memory to share that day really helped me to see the miracles in life. Now, don't get me wrong, I was not and am still not (to a degree) the happy, carefree pregnant women. As much as I felt it was the right time to start trying again, and that I would be able to do it; it was nothing compared to when I actually had done it. I was absolutely terrified those first few weeks. My thoughts ran along the lines of, "What the heck am I doing, I can't go through that again" to "Please, please, please let everything be okay". I still am a bit nervous and probably will be until the baby is in my arms, but such is life for someone who has gone through a tragedy like ours. As of today I have been breathing a little easier because we had our big ultrasound. And YES, everything is where it should be, and functioning as it should be. You may say, "Well, of course it is", but as a parent of a child that passed away because things not being where they should be, it was a big concern. Don't get me wrong, I am TOTALLY happy, just nervous. Jason took a holiday so we could spend the day as a family and go out to eat and have some fun. It was great. I even got a few celebratory outfits.

Here is our little one's profile. It looks like my nose is dominant. I thought that maybe since both boys had my nose that this one would have Jason's, but nope. Mine. The technician said that our baby looked like a little "who" with the little button nose, but I love it!

We got a couple 3D pictures at the appointment. Sleeping as usual, although this kid has a nack for kicking my blatter-not fun. Jefferson was very considerate in that aspect.

Okay, before the suspense kills you....... it's a GIRL. Our very first. I am nervous to have a girl, but also very excited at the same time. I am due in late July and can't wait to have this new addition. I know this is silly, but all prayers are appreciated for the safe arrival of our little lady, and please don't forget those that are trying to bring more children to their families.